Hello Love!
This is a special little post to let you know that I have officially launched the fourth curriculum in my Mystery School 🙂
If you haven't been a part of the School before, it's the place where I've take literally everything I know about human biology, psychology, spirituality, healing, processing, self discovery and self love and put it all in ONE place.
Self Help Broke Me
I got into self help, personal growth and spirituality really young in my life - because I had to.
I was in incredible amounts of pain - my body hurt, my emotions hurt, my mind was confused and I was pretty much in a constant state of feeling like the world around me was on fire.
I was also deeply misunderstood and rejected by pretty much everyone around me.
My physical symptoms were written off as my being weak and lazy.
My mental overwhelm was written off as me just being an 'over thinker' who needed to 'learn how to relax.'
My emotions were labeled as too big and too much.
I was constantly told how much I was making everyone around me uncomfortable and miserable because I couldn't just 'get along.'
I spent my entire childhood looking for where I fit - never finding that place. I felt like everyone else must have some 'secret' to life that I was missing - while at the same time being able to see that pretty much everyone I knew was suffering on some level - but no one was actually ADDRESSING the suffering - everyone was just coping, numbing and self sabotaging.
If you're here, reading this material, It's my guess that you've probably had a really similar experience in your life.
I came to self help and spirituality looking for answers - and what I got was mostly MORE messages about how I was broken, weak, not working hard enough. MORE messages about how parts of myself - my mind, my body, my emotions - needed to be 'fixed' and for the low price of $444.44 I could learn how to 'transcend' all that was wrong with me to finally become my 'highest self.'
But no matter how hard I tried to 'fix' myself, I seemed to end up in the same pain, over and over again.
I hated every part of myself because every part of me was failing to fit in, was failing to live up to expectation, was failing to have pleasure in what I was supposed to be doing.
I was hurting. I could see the world around me was hurting. And no amount of trying to fix myself or others was leading to any kind of relief.
This led to a moment where I realized that self help wasn't going to work.
It led to me finally 'breaking' under the pressure of trying to 'improve' myself - because I could see that it wasn't working for me AND it wasn't actually working for anyone around me either.
I realize Self Help Wasn't It - That Self LOVE Was My Way Forward AND My Connection To A Greater Love Beyond Myself
I got to a place where, after over a decade of trying to figure out what was 'wrong' with me that I was in pain all the time - I FINALLY relaxed into the idea that I wasn't broken,
My body was in pain, my mind was in pain, my emotions were in pain, I could see the pain that everyone ELSE was in and I could see that the world needed to change - but NONE of this was because I was BAD. None of this was because I was flawed. None of this was because HUMANITY was bad or flawed.
I finally saw that all this pain was due to a lack of AWARENESS, UNDERSTANDING and most importantly SUPPORT and CARE.
I didn't need to be fixed.
I needed to learn the language my body was speaking so that I could figure out what she needed and how to get that to her.
I needed to learn the language my emotions were speaking so that I could use them as guides for carving out a life that was actually going to work for me.
I needed to break up with the conditioning that told me there was only 'one' way to be - and I needed to go my own way, to find my own path, and to discover that even in rejection I could be ok.
I needed to find actual self love, so I could SUPPORT the being that I AM instead of fighting with my nature to try to shove myself into a box I was never going to fit into.
I needed to feel that love of something higher than myself leading, guiding and supporting me as I broke up with all the things I had been trained I had to do and be to be good enough.
And that was the birthplace of perception trainers.
I knew that if I, someone who was SO abnormal, could find a way not only to LOVE myself but also to find a life that supports my unique way of being - anyone could.
I knew if I could find the map of HOW to do this, I could teach it so that others wouldn't have to figure it all out on their own.
I knew if I could do this for myself, I could support others in doing it for themselves.
I knew that if I had access to this love that could totally shift my way of life, that everyone could have access to it - and I knew that if I could figure out HOW to access it, I could teach that - because EVERYONE deserves to know how deeply loved, special and perfect they are.
Over the years, I've created a LOT of content that I hope has been of service to this end - helping people see that they aren't broken, so they can start the work of self AWARENESS that will lead them to a life of self SUPPORT.
With that, I realized that some people really like having a step by step program to follow when it comes to developing deep self love, and the capacity to create a life that works for THEM. I realized that there was a COMMUNITY of people who wanted to walk through this work together - and that's why I created my Mystery School.
This community has been going for the last four years, and it's been an amazing journey.
Now, I'm adding to the school.
Starting this week, I'm releasing a fourth curriculum - the most radical so far - all about taking this self love work to the next level.
In this fourth course, you will be led through a series of lessons that include theory, practices, written work, videos and diagram all designed to help you fully realize your inherent goodness so that you can start taking all the big and small steps you need to take to build a way of life that fully supports who and what you ACTUALLY are.
This course is the ultimate departure from self help - it's the big leap into self trust that connects you with your divine birth right - to really FEEL that sense of unconditional love for who you ARE - which will them EMPOWER you to own your space, own your emotions, own your body and own your spirit - so you can create the home for yourself on this earth you deserve to have.
This course is about connecting to the REAL magic of being alive - the magic of self discovery, true connection to love and the wild ride that self expression is.
You're worthy of a life that works for who you are - and you're worthy of exiting the 'matrix' that tells you that you must be anything other than what you are in order to be happy.
You also get access to the community of others who are on this journey along side you - to help answer your questions, provide validation and love and to simply BE with so that you don't feel like you're doing this alone. In this community you also get access to monthly meetings that are just for those in the school that are led by me 🙂
This course is for everyone who's ready to take their self love journey to the next level.
Check out the link here for more information if this sounds like a good fit for you.
I can't wait to see you inside the halls of the school!
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